Sometimes you don’t get to right the wrongs you committed to another person. You just have to live with yourself. I wish I knew the things I know now. I wish I understood myself better. When I screamed for you to leave it was because I was afraid of hurting you anymore. I know I was wrong. I know it made you feel abandoned and scared. I’m reading more about BPD and I’m not saying it excuses my behavior and your treatment. I’m just sorry I hurt you so much. It was a good thing I ended things months ago. You deserve better. I’m happy you see that now. But I went back to being selfish. I hope you find happiness because you deserve it the most of anyone I know.