When Your Dogs Forget Me

Hello how are you. I miss you. Are your dogs OK? I miss them. I have a memory of running around your neighborhood looking for Bebe before we were anything, before we were close. There’s a lot I want to say to you but I know I’ll forget everything. Has the day come when you’ve forgotten me? Time marches on. I was a fool. I use to think life was too sad if we weren’t together. Do you still hate me so much? My hands are dirty. I’ve done some terrible things. I left you crying for too many nights. I’d still give you my life to make things right. But that’s not up to me. I guess my journey’s not over. I haven’t felt whole for a long time. Today I stood up too quickly and I saw Halo almost asleep in her bed, smiling, breathing deeply. Time is weird. Some days I think I deserve a life of loneliness.

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Meh. I need to remind myself that I don’t have to be sad when I don’t need to be! WABLAM!

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